Today is ending up being rather emotional for me. The fact that we are leaving Austin is becoming very real now. In all of this chaos and doing and planning, I have also done a lot of reflection.
One thing I’ve thought about quite extensively is that even though we’ve lived in Tejas for 10 years now, it’s really only seemed like HOME for about 3 or 4 years. I wonder why that is. I have very strong Cancerian tendencies to root and reminisce, nest and be homey. My environs play an enormous role in my emotional health and well-being. I know that. And I know I can be pretty anal about it sometimes, too. To the point of annoying.
But part of that nesting and rooting is what makes me ME. I love to tinker around the house, organize things, move furniture around. Things that might seem like adding to the chaos, but that for me make things more homey, more comfortable.
I know I will find roots in California, that I will nest and explore and enjoy. It’s just always hard for me to leave home behind. And in all of this, I am coming to realize, once again, that home is within me, with my family, with my stuff, with the spirit of those I love that are near and dear to me. So even though we are leaving Tejas, all of those things will come with me, to my new house which, in time, will become my home.
So…. I guess I better get back to packing.
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I want to be like you when I grow up, and take pleasure in organizing.
So… where are we supposed to find two more people we can talk to about F1 racing, the meatpacking industry, and sex toys, all in one night?